Hello beautiful people,
Today is my birthday and unlike all my past birthdays, this one feels different! I feel a positive change and for that, am beyond grateful. I like to believe am older and wiser but to be wiser you must have been wise in the first place, and looking back, my early 20s are in no way the paragon of wisdom rather the opposite. Nonetheless, am lucky to be laughing about it 16,000 feet [guessed figures] up in the sky.
Before anything, let me thank the people who have endured my compulsive, daring, crazy and ridiculous behavior, whether you’ve judged me or not, am thankful that your heads haven’t fallen off from too much smh at my actions and your patience has inspired me a lot. There are times I doubted all of you MUM inclusive bc it didn’t make sense that you stuck around given some of my actions, please forgive my cynicism, it was always me never you. I love and treasure you all and promise to let you know more often for you have played a big role in leading to this very moment, THANK YOU!
For the first time ever, instead of defending my mistakes and having my guard up, I have taken time to reflect on the milestones from my early 20s and am now choosing to let myself learn, take-up responsibility for my actions, accept what is and let go of anger, farewell pettiness still love Taylor Swift though.
It was no walk in the park getting here, the thought first occurred to me on 1st January 2017 at 00:45am at a new year’s party. As I watched fireworks with my right hand folded and a champagne glass in my left, offering a fake nonchalant smile to everyone who wished me a happy new year while silently rolling my eyes, the rest of the party was dancing and busy ushering in the new year with excitement for new experiences, hope for better days and midnight kisses.
It was closed up me vs the positive vibes, when did I get so cynical was the question that lingered on my mind. In that moment, a thought popped up, what if I gift myself with a positive approach to life? After all I spent my 24th birthday in bed with a massive hangover after cancelling my party and later in hospital bc it was something more serious. That’s the point I decided to turn my life around, of course sometimes I have fallen off my new approach to life wagon, talk about early 20s being a roller coaster! But that’s like 30% now which is such a contrast from the previous 85% I’ve come so far guys!
In summary, these are the lessons I’ve learned from my falls
Lesson 1: Take time to recover; there is nothing wrong with withdrawing from daily life so you can fully recover. Yes you might miss out on something great, but rather that than half experiencing it and leaving a half ass mark that you might regret forever, besides, if you missed it, it wasn’t that great, the universe would never let you miss great moments, your time will come.
Lesson 2: There is always going to be someone better than you in multiple things, luckily, non of those things is beauty [don’t ever let anyone compare your good looks to somebody else’s, it’s so superficial and you deserve better.] what am referencing to is experience, knowledge etc and yes it’s so tempting to prove that you’re on the same level, DONT! Instead, prove you’re open to acquiring some of that knowledge, that way you won’t set yourself up for failure plus, it’s far less tiring not forgetting the underestimation merit and all the free passes you get. Ps: am not encouraging laziness here but ya know..
Lesson 3: There is nothing embarrassing about falling face first and picking you up. Hmm, ok there is abit of embarrassment there but it will never outweigh the necessity of picking yourself up and keep it moving. Ever!
Lesson 4: Don’t hold on to grudges, you only live once so be open to forgiveness. Give it and ask for it, of course no guarantee you will receive it every time you ask from others but it’s worth a try and if you don’t get it, be the bigger person and hand it to yourself anyway. It’s not fair for your wrong doings to turn you into a dead man walking.
Lesson 5: Before you fly, you run, before you run, you walk and before you walk you crawl, this properly manifested on a plane. My favorite thing about flying is the take-off, it gives me a blood rush. The excitement starts building up the second the Steward[ess] says the pleasantries #Crawlingstage. I applied this plane movement in my life and boy has it worked wonders!
Unfortunately am not cool enough to have learned 25 lessons from 25 years of my life, am still learning, and probably at a slower and less steady pace than others but it could be worse so am grateful.
Location: Pearl of Africa Hotel, Kampala
Now am off to a bikini filled kind of life in Zanzibar, checkout my Snapchat and Instagram stories to see what I will be doing, sorry can’t give you hints I have no idea either, am letting life take me by surprise, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!